I know you’re hurting and I know it’s hard to hide everything inside. It’s rough to not have anyone to talk to. I know the feeling but I can’t tell you know how YOU feel. Every person deals with theirs emotional differently. But knowing that you’re heart is hearing because that you can’t follow your heart gotta sucks. It’s hard to see the person that you want in your life being far away not being able to be closer. It doesn’t make it easier that you have to hide everything as no one like the person you have feelings for. It’s hard to go days with pretending you’re okey and make up lies to why you’re not your happy self. It’s a sad thing that I’m this world you need the “green light” from family and friends to approve your relationship. Now a days people give them their reason to why you can’t date whomever. It’s like today that you can’t make your own decisions. I mean you’re the one who’s gonna spend years with this person. Be with whoever YOU WANT TO BE WITH. Don’t think about “my family or friends won’t except or like this” think that they are not the one who’s gonna be with this person, YOU ARE! so If this person makes you happy then take the chance. Don’t stop your happiness to someone else’s opinion. You are you and don’t let anyone tell you who you can and can’t date or be friends with in that case. It’s your life not theirs.